INTERVIEWS, LIFE AND DEATH

Oh man oh man oh man, Guess that my english is not up to standard according to my friend, Aaron. Well, wat to do? I suck in my english and chinese lingo. Hell, i suck in almost watever subject i studied in. Izzit my brain or just plain laziness, i also dun know... But dun worry gang, me will work harder on that. U can bet on it.

I just went for 2 job interviews today. 1 at Hang Ten and 1 at Glordano. Guess i didn't impress the interviewers much but hey i tried my best. Anyway, the pay suck and the job requirements damn siong. Dunno if i want to work there even if they offer me the job. I always prefer working in the food industry, at least u still get free food and God knows how much protential there is in the food industry. I mean no matter wat, everyone also has to eat everyday right? But wat to do? Its not like i have a degree or wat, i onli have a freaking A' level cert and a lousy one too if i may add. :( I noticed that Singaporeans complain too much for their own good and they also demand a lot. I mean just look at me, i just complained about jobs offer! But if you do read the forum regularly, u noticed that a lot of people complain even about the smallest of things. Fuck you society, shame on u! Life may be a bitch but at least we should try to endure and not complain so much. I just read a blog belonging to a 16 year old gal from rgps/nygh/rjc and i have to admit her english damn powderful and deep. I guess she muz belong to the top 5% class of Singapore. Sometimes it makes me wonder, 10 years down the road, do u think these young top 5% elites of our society will make it big in life? Or are they going to end up working as normal office workers or do u think they will turn into successful fuckers who make big bucks n then fuck off from Singapore?? I hope they dun do that lah, at least they should do something back for society or wat. I always wanted to do something for society but i lack the ability to do so. Heck, i am finding it hard even to contribute to my family household. But as i get older and hopefully more successful, rest assure that i will give back to society.

About death, it seems too creepy to talk about it but yet we should just embrace it. After all, life and death is just like the 2 sides of a coin. Humans live for an average of 70- 80 years so it doesn't seem too far away. Fuck, I ain't going to be sure how long I am going to live. Feel scare in a way. But i believe that our lives should be like a candle, as long as we are still alive, we should bring warmth to other people. And i hope to go off with a bang, hopefully when i die one day, people will say :" there gones a wonderful bugger, they just dun make them like they used to." My life evolves around my friends and family... I also read in papers that people are placing their parents in old aged home and care centres even if they are fit to stay at home. Thats damn sad man. I also dunno wat the future holds for me, but i know that deep down inside this fat n shallow body of mine, i will do my best to look after my parents. Even though i have let them down so many times, i believe the least i can do is to take care of them in old age. Yes, i may always complain and compare my parents to my friends' parents but i know deep down inside, no one will ever love me more than my parents. But i just dunno why i cannot express it to them or show it to them, instead i pissed them off more... Dun tell me that onli by losing someone close to our heart will we then tresure them more? I dun want! I guess i just have to work harder these few years to show my parents that i can become a responsible, hard-working, honest down to earth son to them. I believe that LOVE will drive me towards my goals. LOVE U DAD n MUM. BLess u to a ripe healthy old age.